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OK, if we're going on that way...
Aug. 2nd, 2007 11:59 amIn response to the fact that it is your journal, allow me to retort, my own way. Let it also be know that this is my most therapeutic entry yet.
I think you're afraid. And you always have been. You're afraid of death, change, and everything that is out of the ordinary!
Tell me this: How can it be that my love for a fictional character is called childish, while yours is widely accepted. Based on what is written in a couple of books, and I can assure you, my stack of books is thicker. It's all we've got to go on. Both of us. Still, there's a major difference between the two of us.
You see, when you told me you loved me, hell, when you practically screamed you did, even making an entry about it in your LJ, I knew things couldn't last forever. It wears, I know. But what I didn't expect is that your religion would make such an impact on your choices in the future. I'd've given up Shampoo for you anyday. Why? Because we live now, and what happens after this, as long as there's no certainty, I'll live for what I DO know. And that is what makes my life very different from yours.
Just... Just what WAS YOUR plan? I got the walking back to him part. And I remember you telling me that he was of the faith and you wouldn't trust my agnostic ass in a church, because I would be pretending... You were talking about children! You wanted the kids to be of your faith. You were already talking future with me! After like, two months? But I should've seen then. You are afraid of the future. Especially one where it won't look exactly as you want it to be.
But this kinda makes it more difficult for me to understand, because what, exactly, DO you want? Do you want a life as a housewife? Even though you practically finished college? Because as I remember it, I had to push very hard to make you continue. You were, once again, afraid of change!
But Shampoo AND God help me, I still love you, I do. And after all this, I will still help you through whatever the hell you're going through! It's nasty, but it was nasty what I was going through, and you always were there for me! I plan to return that favor, even if it kills me. But you have to wake up and stop being afraid of what is ahead and face it!
And for the love of everything that's holy to anyone, next time you make an entry like that, do me a favor and ( Cut your entries where needed! ) Please?
I think you're afraid. And you always have been. You're afraid of death, change, and everything that is out of the ordinary!
Tell me this: How can it be that my love for a fictional character is called childish, while yours is widely accepted. Based on what is written in a couple of books, and I can assure you, my stack of books is thicker. It's all we've got to go on. Both of us. Still, there's a major difference between the two of us.
You see, when you told me you loved me, hell, when you practically screamed you did, even making an entry about it in your LJ, I knew things couldn't last forever. It wears, I know. But what I didn't expect is that your religion would make such an impact on your choices in the future. I'd've given up Shampoo for you anyday. Why? Because we live now, and what happens after this, as long as there's no certainty, I'll live for what I DO know. And that is what makes my life very different from yours.
Just... Just what WAS YOUR plan? I got the walking back to him part. And I remember you telling me that he was of the faith and you wouldn't trust my agnostic ass in a church, because I would be pretending... You were talking about children! You wanted the kids to be of your faith. You were already talking future with me! After like, two months? But I should've seen then. You are afraid of the future. Especially one where it won't look exactly as you want it to be.
But this kinda makes it more difficult for me to understand, because what, exactly, DO you want? Do you want a life as a housewife? Even though you practically finished college? Because as I remember it, I had to push very hard to make you continue. You were, once again, afraid of change!
But Shampoo AND God help me, I still love you, I do. And after all this, I will still help you through whatever the hell you're going through! It's nasty, but it was nasty what I was going through, and you always were there for me! I plan to return that favor, even if it kills me. But you have to wake up and stop being afraid of what is ahead and face it!
And for the love of everything that's holy to anyone, next time you make an entry like that, do me a favor and ( Cut your entries where needed! ) Please?
