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Mar. 5th, 2012 08:14 amI am... completely zoned out. I have no clue as per to what's happening in my life, right now. Last Saturday was the best day I've had in a while. We went out bowling and dinner with an old group of classmates, we do that every 3-4 months, and everyone was there, which hadn't happened in quite a while - It was fucking awesome. Yesterday was weird, I didn't feel jack, and the lack of feelings was vaguely reminiscent of my depressing years, but somehow the echo of depression did not settle in. I was still feeling to good from the day before. 'Sides, the bitch was quiet, which I really appreciated. I had some paperwork to take care of, but I seem to have lost two bills which I needed to submit to insurance. That did sort of tick me off, but not enough to get me.
I'm still having this... Vulcan mood, I can find no better way to describe it. The fact that I could muster up a smile and a wave to a car driver that braked real hard to let me cross a zebra felt like a whole achievement. And I really do not want that. Speaking of Vulcans, I've restarted watching ST:Voyager, and loving it - it was always my favorite of the lot, but I've discovered my DVD-ROM has some trouble with certain area's of a disc, which amused me, as I ended up watching 1 per 4 episodes streamed from the Internet. Technically it was a necessity, even though I own the DVD's. It still shouldn't have to matter though.
I feel like I've lost a very good friend. We hardly ever talk anymore, and the last time I was with her (which was a while ago) she was distant, and I most definitely wasn't at my best either. I feel this impacted our friendship way more than she wants to admit, and I'm left thinking about her at random times (though often, to the point of remembering dreams about her). In all fairness, it hasn't even been THAT long, and she is going through a hard time, but it doesn't feel right. As a friend, shouldn't I be there? Anyway, I'm fighting with myself over this right now. Missed a lot of sleep. Less and less time goes into Star Trek Online, but I've been plowing myself through 'Dune', which I received about a week ago, right before I managed to sleep for 12 hours straight.
As for games, I've been playing some Riichi Mahjong, and quite frankly, I suck at it. My average score is about -25, and my highest yet is -3. I haven't managed to claim Riichi yet, and I can't plan my moves sufficiently to prevent me from claiming Ron (going Mahjong) every once in a while. It has helped me understand the anime 'Saki' a bit better, though, but I'm still very inexperienced with the scoring and payment system. It doesn't help that both the games of Riichi I play are in full-Japanese. The kan do not have numbers on them, which sometimes make it hard to decide my discards and catch me off-guard when the computer suddenly suggests Chi's from my left-side opponent I didn't even know were possible. The payment dialogs are also in Japanese, and I haven't found a web-page that could properly explain it to me.
Spent three rounds on my Powerball yesterday, which is the first time since I picked the thing up again. Felt fantastic. That's about it, I guess. Time to get to work, if I can manage to get my head straight enough...
I'm still having this... Vulcan mood, I can find no better way to describe it. The fact that I could muster up a smile and a wave to a car driver that braked real hard to let me cross a zebra felt like a whole achievement. And I really do not want that. Speaking of Vulcans, I've restarted watching ST:Voyager, and loving it - it was always my favorite of the lot, but I've discovered my DVD-ROM has some trouble with certain area's of a disc, which amused me, as I ended up watching 1 per 4 episodes streamed from the Internet. Technically it was a necessity, even though I own the DVD's. It still shouldn't have to matter though.
I feel like I've lost a very good friend. We hardly ever talk anymore, and the last time I was with her (which was a while ago) she was distant, and I most definitely wasn't at my best either. I feel this impacted our friendship way more than she wants to admit, and I'm left thinking about her at random times (though often, to the point of remembering dreams about her). In all fairness, it hasn't even been THAT long, and she is going through a hard time, but it doesn't feel right. As a friend, shouldn't I be there? Anyway, I'm fighting with myself over this right now. Missed a lot of sleep. Less and less time goes into Star Trek Online, but I've been plowing myself through 'Dune', which I received about a week ago, right before I managed to sleep for 12 hours straight.
As for games, I've been playing some Riichi Mahjong, and quite frankly, I suck at it. My average score is about -25, and my highest yet is -3. I haven't managed to claim Riichi yet, and I can't plan my moves sufficiently to prevent me from claiming Ron (going Mahjong) every once in a while. It has helped me understand the anime 'Saki' a bit better, though, but I'm still very inexperienced with the scoring and payment system. It doesn't help that both the games of Riichi I play are in full-Japanese. The kan do not have numbers on them, which sometimes make it hard to decide my discards and catch me off-guard when the computer suddenly suggests Chi's from my left-side opponent I didn't even know were possible. The payment dialogs are also in Japanese, and I haven't found a web-page that could properly explain it to me.
Spent three rounds on my Powerball yesterday, which is the first time since I picked the thing up again. Felt fantastic. That's about it, I guess. Time to get to work, if I can manage to get my head straight enough...
