Things worth crying about

I've got an appointment with the doctor this afternoon to remove some abnormal (non-cancerous!) growths on the left side of my noggin, and I promised my mother I'd tell the doc about my depression, which has clearly passed its apex yesterday, when I made some wrong moves at work, which have all been forgiven by everyone but myself. Thing is, mom wants me to see a psychotherapist, and I've had some bad experiences with one and hence do not really trust them anymore, nor do I feel well about airing my heart to total strangers, which is totally why I do it to you guys, sorry about that. XD It IS the reason why I made an LJ in the first place, and I've found it to have a reasonable therapeutic effect. Sometimes the problems just... rise above my head. Some personal, some national, some worldwide. A list of recent notable things I worry about:

( That's an enormous amount of text. No wonder I can't take it right now! )

As this next one is completely new, I'll keep this one outside of the cut. It's important to me.

General intolerance, religious or no
The obvious extremists (of whichever religion *coughcrusadescough*) aside, sometimes things that just piss me right the fuck off happen. Like where people are all one big happy community until someone stands up for her constitutional rights, but they don't conform to the majority anyway. Granted, this is a religion example, but the banner might just as well have said "Gays go home" or "Women should stay in the kitchen", where the majority were gaybashers or masculists. The effect would be the same, that this poor girl is now exposed to threats and extreme points of view. It's inspiring to see her keep being strong.

For clarity's sake, there are things that counter these bad moods, among others: Audition (escape into gaming), my friends (LJ or no) and people like @JessicaAhlquist, who show me that there's still people worth my attention.

Snip snip

The lumps on the left side of my head are gone. Instead there are four stitches, which will be removed next friday, as long as I remember to make an appointment next monday. Regretfully I don't have pictures. I forgot to take them, but they were two well-encapsuled lumps of heaped-up tallow and the doctor was very good at removing them. Essentially I could've taken them home, but they were also covered in blood. XD

The big one was the big problem. It was completely lodged in my dermis (lederhuid) and had to be forcefully, yet subtly removed (as to prevent regrowth). When we were done, about 15 minutes in, the appointment time had passed, but I was in a little late, so in the end we decided to remove the smaller one as well, which essentially just popped out and took a whopping 4 minutes. XD

The downside about the smaller one was that part of the area wasn't anaesticized properly and I actually felt part of the cut. On-the-fly meditation pretty much solved that for us (as re-anaesticizing would take some time), and that was done pretty quick. The only downside is that my body was still screaming in agony (meditation only cancels the reception) and produced a lot of sweat. When he had finally sewn me up, I was drenched. ._.

So now I've got to leave the gauze on for at least a day (and not shower). Luckily I've run out of pants to wear as well as the bitch just keeps running laundry after laundry without me having any chance of cutting in (everything at 95° too, which will probably break the machine sooner rather than later). That wench has no respect for anything. Probably comes with the lower intelligence.