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That worked, a little.
Jan. 8th, 2012 09:51 pmSo I've finally come to grip with what happened the first few days of this year, and while I'm still not ok with it, I've finally laid it to rest. I know I was told not to think about it too much, and I'm sorry for thinking about it too much. I'm definitely sorry that I'll keep having expectations of anything I do, and to make things even more cryptic for outsiders, I will have even higher expectations of myself should there ever be a similar event. But I intend to show a better side of me next time, as I always intend. I fucked up a lot and I've meditated on it, I've learned from it and hope to be able to show it next time.
Speaking of stupidity at the beginning of the year, I've already had the letter from the bank roll in. Naturally they demanded extra interest over what I had to pay, but all in all, I think it turned out ok, another thing I can leave behind me, provided I learned from it. Now all I am left with, in the financial sense, is an extra dent in my reserves and another bitter reminder that Dutch insurances are no longer good for anything lest I end up in a hospital, something which I intend to avoid for at least the next ten years, although goddess forbid, the moment I'd end the insurance (illegal over here), I'd get hit by a car the next day. XD
My brother came over for dinner and we wolfed down three spring rolls each (Chinese Loempia's, in Dutch XD), followed by a salmon/dille in puff pastry, and I don't even feel like I'm gonna burst. My stomach looks like it has seen much better days though. Also I finally shaved my head again. I should do that more than once a week. Since I already blew all my new year's promises, I suppose I could make that one, if only I wasn't sure I'd blow that one right away, too. ._.
Speaking of stupidity at the beginning of the year, I've already had the letter from the bank roll in. Naturally they demanded extra interest over what I had to pay, but all in all, I think it turned out ok, another thing I can leave behind me, provided I learned from it. Now all I am left with, in the financial sense, is an extra dent in my reserves and another bitter reminder that Dutch insurances are no longer good for anything lest I end up in a hospital, something which I intend to avoid for at least the next ten years, although goddess forbid, the moment I'd end the insurance (illegal over here), I'd get hit by a car the next day. XD
My brother came over for dinner and we wolfed down three spring rolls each (Chinese Loempia's, in Dutch XD), followed by a salmon/dille in puff pastry, and I don't even feel like I'm gonna burst. My stomach looks like it has seen much better days though. Also I finally shaved my head again. I should do that more than once a week. Since I already blew all my new year's promises, I suppose I could make that one, if only I wasn't sure I'd blow that one right away, too. ._.
