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GOD FUCKING DAMMIT!
THIS is what I work for. THIS is what I do. When people need shit adjusted they ask me when it comes to programming. Even the actual ace, who is a lot better than me, comes to me for stuff from time to time.
We are all going to switch to digital reanalysis lists. Quoth everyone yesterday. So I went into discussion, about the use for us, seeing as we kinda tend to take care of our own re's. No, they said. It would be easier to trace should things go wrong and less lists will fail to arrive, they said. Besides that, we need some uniformity, they said. The last time I saw this lot polyformity was at TNO, and that's saying something. NOTHING is the same between departments...
BUT! I'm fine with it. I started to do my magic: My computer collapses. So I call it a day. Today, I have to arrive at work in the crap I left behind the day before. Not just that, but I tried a different computer, and crashed that one, too. In the end it turned out to be a mistake from the whizzes at IT, but still, it took a good 2 hours to restore everything. In said 2 hours, colleague, whom's computer I ruined got here (she works part-time), and was... surprisingly mild about it all, which, as per usual only upset me more. Why can't people just... be angry with me when they have to be, and praise me (even a little bit) when something I do turns out right???
Well, that was the least of my problems at the time. I resume my programming, and my estimate that it will take a good two weeks to program this shit is shattered as I complete my project at 14:00. I demonstrate to a couple of people, who are impressed with the findings. One last conference...
Platform volatiles will not be joining in the digitalisation, because we kinda tend to take care of our own re's, so there's no use. And you know what? Besides the ace himself, no-one was really impressed but me...
Then people keep joking about me performing badly. I know it's a joke, or at least... I think it's still a joke, but it's gone on for long enough. I'm about to burst into a fucking flame of fury. The fact that I do a lot of side-jobs kinda tends to divert me from my main job a bit, but yeah, everything's done in time. The fact that I was here at 8 and he was here at... what... 9:30ish?... Sometimes I wish I could just punch someone and get away with it. I'M GETTING A FUCKLOAD DONE BUT THEN I'M TOLD IT'S NOT NEEDED ANYMORE. RETARDS!
I hope this idiotic condescending attitude towards me will not hop over to my direct colleagues, because that'd kinda take away ALL pleasure I have in my job.
#EDIT: ( lol )
THIS is what I work for. THIS is what I do. When people need shit adjusted they ask me when it comes to programming. Even the actual ace, who is a lot better than me, comes to me for stuff from time to time.
We are all going to switch to digital reanalysis lists. Quoth everyone yesterday. So I went into discussion, about the use for us, seeing as we kinda tend to take care of our own re's. No, they said. It would be easier to trace should things go wrong and less lists will fail to arrive, they said. Besides that, we need some uniformity, they said. The last time I saw this lot polyformity was at TNO, and that's saying something. NOTHING is the same between departments...
BUT! I'm fine with it. I started to do my magic: My computer collapses. So I call it a day. Today, I have to arrive at work in the crap I left behind the day before. Not just that, but I tried a different computer, and crashed that one, too. In the end it turned out to be a mistake from the whizzes at IT, but still, it took a good 2 hours to restore everything. In said 2 hours, colleague, whom's computer I ruined got here (she works part-time), and was... surprisingly mild about it all, which, as per usual only upset me more. Why can't people just... be angry with me when they have to be, and praise me (even a little bit) when something I do turns out right???
Well, that was the least of my problems at the time. I resume my programming, and my estimate that it will take a good two weeks to program this shit is shattered as I complete my project at 14:00. I demonstrate to a couple of people, who are impressed with the findings. One last conference...
Platform volatiles will not be joining in the digitalisation, because we kinda tend to take care of our own re's, so there's no use. And you know what? Besides the ace himself, no-one was really impressed but me...
Then people keep joking about me performing badly. I know it's a joke, or at least... I think it's still a joke, but it's gone on for long enough. I'm about to burst into a fucking flame of fury. The fact that I do a lot of side-jobs kinda tends to divert me from my main job a bit, but yeah, everything's done in time. The fact that I was here at 8 and he was here at... what... 9:30ish?... Sometimes I wish I could just punch someone and get away with it. I'M GETTING A FUCKLOAD DONE BUT THEN I'M TOLD IT'S NOT NEEDED ANYMORE. RETARDS!
I hope this idiotic condescending attitude towards me will not hop over to my direct colleagues, because that'd kinda take away ALL pleasure I have in my job.
#EDIT: ( lol )
